to be carried home

surface to air. and what it means to walk out of the word. and to surf against the more real air. to a place where the climate of the day meets your lips. and the sweat off the back bone.

for you have not received the spirit of slavery, so that you can fall back into fear, he says. but you have received the spirit of adoption, as sons, by whom we cry Abba Father.

to be near and in the presence of passionately furious love. to sit with arms wide open at the mouth of a roaring waterfall that consumes you but spares your life. to walk into the room of the most high. lay down your sword. and crawl, like a child, into his lap. and be held as his own treasured possession.

Abba. I am yours.